learning to let go... kinda

April 3, 2004

Jasai
Los Angeles, CA
2 children - boy (8) girl (3)


Motherhood somtimes not having very much to do with children. This is the very valuable lesson I learned today during the BMD orientation (which went superbly.) Many times I am doing things in the name of it being "for their own good" when the truth pronounces loudly - if only i would listen - "that is not their personality and if you keep fighting them on this, they will keep fighting back." That would be a a crummy way to spend the next 18+ years.

The enthusiasm, fervor and fever of the mothers on the subject of mothering was a breath of fresh air (and a jolt to the tear ducts once or twice.) Truly it is time that they were heard on this matter.

Son (10) is with his father for the "birthday weekend." Promised gifts were brought. Promised weekend was had. Will review this as positive. Will put other (many) failures to come through, aside. What is good for son and makes son happy is goal. Son is good and happy.

END 10:21 p.m.